Thursday, July 1, 2010

Where I've been lately...

I wondered about whether I wanted to share this with anyone in the blog world, but I felt like I needed to get this out and maybe some other bloggers can identify with me. So here goes...

Since January, I have been undergoing fertility treatments. I wasn't really ready to share on here because I didn't know what the outcome would be or how long it would take. It took a toll on me emotionally and physically, but having a baby became very important to me. On June 4, I found out I was pregnant and it was the most amazing feeling EVER. This was something I wanted so badly and I finally felt like I was truly happy for the first time in a long time.

I was almost 8 weeks along when I went to the doctor this week and found out the baby was not growing. The news was devastating, shocking, and very saddening. First, I was depressed and upset...then it turned to anger as I wondered why this had to happen to us..and then I just started feeling numb. I really don't even know if I'm dealing with this pain the right way or if there is a right way.

This has been a very difficult week for my family, but we look forward to the future. Thank you so much for your support and I'll be back to blogging in a few days.

Lisa

P.S. I always, always make an effort to respond to every comment I get. I hope you understand that I may not respond this weekend, but I appreciate all your kind words.

18 comments :

  1. Oh Lisa, I am so so sorry. I've miscarried before and my heart goes out to you. * big hugs*

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  2. Oh dude... that sucks. I don't understand why some things are such a struggle.. You would hope that since it was hard to get there, the rest would be smooth sailing.

    I am so sorry for your loss and the heartache you must be feeling. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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  3. I am so sorry for your pain. I have never been through what you are going through but have a struggle of my own right now. Blogging is a great outlet but I totally understand sometimes you just don't have it in you. God has a plan for us all, in His time not ours. Don't loose faith and I will keep you in my prayers.

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  4. Lisa, I'm so sorry for your loss. Hang in there and know that we're all out here if you need us.

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  5. You're a tough lady, Lisa. You know we're here for you when you're ready. ::hugs::

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  6. My heart goes out to you. I have kids so I can only IMAGINE the horror of losing one but I can't truly relate. Keep positive and see the good things still there. There are plenty of them!

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  7. sending you lots of prayers

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  8. I am so sorry. We've had two miscarriages (1st and 3rd pregnancies) and were told I would never conceive naturally again (a few years later and we did) and I understand the pain. Take care of yourself and give yourself a chance to heal.

    (hug)

    Stacy

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  9. I'm so sorry, Lisa. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers for healing.

    Hugs,

    Amanda

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  10. Oh Lisa I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine the pain you're feeling right now. Take time to heal emotionally with your husband.

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  11. I'm so so sorry to hear about your loss. Sending lots of prayers your way.

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  12. I'm so sorry honey! Sending a ton of T+P from the northwest Chicago suburbs to you! One of my best friends just went through this same thing, so I know how rough it is to cope. You are a very strong woman!

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  13. I'm sorry that you have to go through this. Sending lots of good wishes to you and your family!

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  14. I'm so sorry. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through.

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  15. Lisa,I'm so sorry to read this! I'll be praying for you. My husband and I lost twins to a miscarriage and then a daughter to premature birth (both happened last year). It is so difficult and I think you hit it right on the head when you said there may be no right way to deal with it. It is a roller coaster of emotions. But stay strong and stay connected to your husband. I'll be thinking of you.

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  16. I could say something conciliatory here, but the plain truth is, what happened sucks and it's frustrating beyond words. I have 3 fantastic kids, and I had a miscarriage. It doesn't matter what the circumstances, it's awful. Just remember, you have lots of support, even from perfect strangers, and when you DO become a mom, you'll appreciate it even more.

    Look forward to it. It will happen. And it will be awesome.

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